It has been a long time since I have updated my little blog here. I have fallen into a little bit of depression in the last year or so and as a result a lot of things have changed in my life.
My oldest son moved out this last summer and has only communicated with me 3 times by email since he left. I have no clue where he is or what he is doing. I miss him so much it hurts.
I have not ran in almost a year and want to get back to it if I can ever find the time. I have gained 30+ pounds as a result of eating junk food and not exercising.
I was terminated from my job in May of 2019 for a bogus reason that I don’t want to talk about. I started my current job in July and I am still trying to catch up on bills. I do like my new job which pays a little less but is only 1.25 miles from home.
I am still in school and finishing up my last semester for criminal justice. I am not sure if I will continue for my law enforcement degree or not. Honestly I don’t even want to finish but the classes are already paid for.
The boyfriend and I are having relationship problems and I am not sure if we are still together or not. He treats me more like a roommate than a girlfriend but we still share a bed at night. I just want things to be fun and happy between us again. I miss him so much it hurts.
Also I had my last cigarette ever at 9:45 am on February 14th 2020. For the last 7 days I smoked 10 Black and mild cigars and my last puff of those was at 9:45 today February 21st 2020. I have quit smoking several times before but this time will be different. I am tired of being a smoker. I am tired of smelling like smoke. I am tired of literally burning my money. But, most of all I am tired of missing things with my kids because I am outside puffing away.
For 2020 I am trying to start doing something to improve myself every month and at the end of the year I will be a whole new me.
In case you were wondering for January it was brushing my teeth at least once a day. I grew up in a household that never made a big deal about oral hygiene and as a result at the age of 38 I have had 2 teeth pulled, 3 root canals with 2 crowns, and fillings in all of the remaining teeth. So far I have succeeded with my goal and am now working on the second goal and planning the third.
So far my ideas for March are get all of the dental work that I still need to do done, get my homework done before the due date so I don’t have to scramble at the last minute, start running again, or something else I have not thought of yet.
I will update and share my progress soon,
Cindy
Psycho Runner Girl 